hello world. I'd be relocating my blog to www.xanga.com/rrapture
every tom dick harry and their brother are using blogspot, there's nothing special about it anymore, i feel
anyhow, goodbye and good night

maybe someday, i'll go

of darwin, adam and eve

its thought provocating how god could in fact be a mathematical equation under the grand unification theory. every aspect of science is refuting the need to have a religion now. pagan elements are increasing, christmas' more about merry making than commemorating god- our first cause in life. and for this matter, i am deeply guilt-ridden. how i've veered from the christian path i ought to take, and how god came into mind only at times of desperation when i need emotional solace. to be honest world, its a year since i last stepped into my church.
been pondering and reading into whats life. this year had been a tumultuous one. the vehement struggle to get out of all the past relationships had resulted me in pushing all my blames to god, i don't know, but all the past thoughts are killing me now.

All heavy laden acquainted with sorrow

May Christ in our marrow, carry us home

From alabaster come blessings of laughter

A fragrance of passion and joy from the truth

Grant the unbroken tears ever flowing

From hearts of contrition only for You
May sin never hold true that love never broke through

For God's mercy holds us and we are His own.

i know you'd help in recovering my old self.
i'd be fighting to achieve my goals and delectable grades like before.
remind me daily not to stray from you, never ever.

lord, i am sorry.